it sucks

erm dunnoe wat to do ne...
staying at home...
lepak-ing in my room je..
then on9 n listens to mp3...
dunnoe y i rfused to work...
myb i am too emotional kot..
erm dunnoe la...
juz dowan to feel d pain
again...
ermmmm let it b...

LIED!!!

wen i said im ok...
wen i said im juz fine...
wen i said i preffred alone...
wen i said im hepy...
wen i said im kewl...
wen i said i've notink to fear of..
wen i said i dun care...
wen i said dn hve to wait 4 me...
wen i said dat i can lve wthout u...
erm..
welllllll
dats wat u gt wen u let ur hearts win...
i've no rational in thnking...
wel jz hates...
i cant wait 4 go out for prctcl...
really wanna b d other 'me'....
so damn!!!!
sicks of being nice n kinds towards others
sicks of being hypocrite all d tme...
sicks of sharing....
sicks of evrytink....
im sicks...
mentally mayb :P

hopes

wel dis is me...
hates suddenly surrounds me
i dunnoe wat happens
hopes i'll b okay soon!!!

deepest heart

i dun really cry on simple tings..
but lately....
i cries oftenly....
bt its hard 4 u guys to caught me crying...
damn...
im juz a normal person...
wanna b love n wanna b respects...
hopes dat dey will understands..
i din asks much..
juz smiles to me..
showed me ur fine looks...
damn..
sumtimes dey hurted me soo damn bad...
its sucks...
so damn sucks...
please im begging juz please
mke sumtink dat can cheer me...
cuz u guys are my pain
n oso my cure...
i cant really
being straight forward towards u guys...
cuz i dun hve d strength in arguing
wth my own ssters...
sumtime do feel like im a
miss faking..
im smiling but deep in my heart
im crying.....

sorry for being me....

whre shud i starts? i dun really feel like sharing wth

others but i juz couldnt handle it anymore...

and if i keep it for another period im might be really mad huhu...

ermmm...

its bout our dinner...

i do realised dat lots of people out thre were not satisfied wth me...

myb i was too busy and do hurts them wthout noticed....

i do felt miserable.....lots of tests around d

corner and i stil hve to tink bout the dinner...

i cant even count hw many times i cried in the bathroom ;p

juz wanna settle d dinner and satsfy other???

it's really hard being top of d organizer...

a lots of tings i need to inspects...

sumtimes even simple and nonsence tings they're asked me...

i do feel fed up but i cant give up cuz i noe dat my responsible...

mybe thy thought juz bcuz im d top of orgnzer

i can juz sits around n let all my crew do the tasks for me....

but...think if u were in my shoes?

im sure they will understand...

i gives my full efforts for that event...

im trying really hard for being d best but still???

i cant...

its hurted me soooo badddddd...

i need to tinks and settle lots of things....

even my frens sumtimes did felt dssapointed towards me...

really wanna them to noe dat i din mean to hurt u guys.....

juz dowan u guys to feel d same feeling like i felt.........

handling this event really make me suffered a lots....

wth the crew that really arrogant,ego, bossy and annoying attitudes...

BULLSHIT!!!!!

guys......i'm normal persons...

i smile wen im hepy n i do cry wen im sad...

please....dun simply judge my jobs if u dun really know.....

selpish person out thre!!!

ohohohohhhhoooooo...

read out d title...herm really hate peopla dat selpish and always

tink bout thmselves n dun care bout others... really hate them larr...

not really hate larr but i really dun like

dat kind of attitude huhu...

so u people out thre...

DUN B A SELPISH PERSON!!!

do tinks bout othrs b4 urself......

dun make ur own decision as u wish

do asks n listen to others...

wats happening to me..

i cant even tink wise...

dunnoe how to tink and wat to tink...

really lost at dis moment!!!

totally LOST!!!

sumtimes i do feel orite...but

sumtimes i felt alone n sumtimes i do felt hurted...

n sumtimes i felt sad n sorrow surround me....

really dunnoe wat exactly happening to me lately...

my life is getting miserable day by days...

sumtimes do feel like really sick of living here...

("~)

march 2009

i dun really like wake up early....
but today quite early la...i guess..
now siting here alone in my room and thinks...
but dunnoe wat to tinks about....
i really miss my ma,ayah n oso my ssters...
sumtimes do feel like im alone here...
ma....
im sory for being soo weak...
im trying to b tougher but i failed...
wondering wat shud i do....
where shud i go....
who shud i trust....
i cant figure it out myself...
do feel like a dumb...
hermmmm...
wishing stars...
hope dat tings really exists hehee....
help me...
cure my pain....
reduce my deppression...
cheer up my life....
i wanna be like i used to be before...

who am i??

herm where shud i stat....

where shud i blow my words...

how shud i fix my sentence....

erm dis is my story...

born as Nur Ain bt Ahmad..

on 28th of june 1989

at Malacca...

my fisrt skol was TaDika kemas Jln Air Madu,

then i begin my primary skol at

sek.ren.keb.jln Air panas (skjap)

and oso at sekolah agama Pulapol jln Semarak...

after done with primary skol..

i continue my lessons at

sek.men.keb(p) Air Panas oso known as

Air PanaS Girls Skol....

currently im studying in UiTm...

taking hotel management....